Home spanking: note to self...

Caning in the nappy position bruises far more than you'd expect it to. This is the aftereffect of 12 strokes with a thin cane and 21 with a thicker one (I think), spaced out nice and slow over a couple of hours with a light spanking and tawsing to warm up first, and a lot of play with the tiny leather flogger inbetween. I'd never been beaten that way up before and the severity of the marks was an unexpected side-effect. Not that I could have stopped him at the time if I'd realised how badly it was going to bruise, to be fair.

Luckily I don't have any shoots booked for a couple of weeks, so they'll have time to fade. Personally I blame the fact that my ankles were chained to the bedstead above my head. If I hadn't been straining against my bonds all the time I was being caned, my muscles wouldn't have been so tense and it wouldn't have bruised so badly. Ho hum. I guess I'll just take double doses of arnica for the next few days, and trust I'll know better next time...

Girls Boarding School

As well as being Pandora, I'm now also Paulina of Girls’ Boarding School, which has been one of my favourite spanking sites for as long as I’ve been using the internet for porn. It's run by Tom and Sophie, the lovely, talented, professional people who spent the afternoon acting with me, filming me, beating me till my screams weren’t entirely acted, giving me tea and cigarettes inbetween takes and champagne afterwards.

Once we arrived in their overwhelmingly beautiful Mediterranean villa, Tom fed me coffee (which I was in dire need of after travelling since 5.30am that morning) and talked me through the first film. The story was that new resident Paulina had been allowed a mobile phone to make emergency calls with, call cabs, that sort of thing, but had run up an incredible bill calling a friend in Australia. Tom demands that she choose between either paying it all herself, or taking her punishment. She protests that she'll pay it, and runs off to fetch all the money in her possession - over $100, but nowhere near enough to cover the bill. Tom concludes that her choice is, in fact, to accept the punishment.



The first film involved a cold caning - not starting very heavily, but without a warm-up beforehand so that they could get the full visible tramlines. There were between 20 and 30 strokes in total, varying in speed, and stopping the camera for a short break every five or six strokes. I can’t remember an occasion when I’ve been cold caned without using the first strokes effectively as a warm up, but (possibly because of the breaks) it wasn’t particularly difficult. After the dialogue lead-in, which included a fair bit of improvised acting, he gave me two strokes and then stopped for a cigarette and a drink before carrying on. Perhaps that, plus the fact that the headspace was entirely acted and I was very much in control of my reactions, made it easier to take. In the middle he started alternating strokes between the thicker and thinner canes, which was interesting, and directly demonstrated my observation that I greatly prefer the sensation of heavier ones.

Afterwards we sat down and I smoked one of Tom's cigarettes while he waved his around without ever seeming to put it in his mouth, a column of ash that remarkably never spilled until he tapped it on the expensive-looking blue ceramic ashtray. He seemed happy with how the movie had gone - and after four years of watching the site with lip-biting, wistful jealousy, I was a resident of the Girls Boarding School. I leaned back and smoked my Marlboro, grinning a euphoric, endorphin-fuelled grin.

The stills and clips from the first movie are online in the members area, but I've put together a mini-gallery of off-the-fly images. We filmed two more movies that day, so stay tuned.

English Spanking

On Tuesday I found myself going back home, up to the Midlands for a shoot with Nottingham-based English Spankers. Peter and Andrew are lovely gentlemen and experienced film-makers who gave me a very warm welcome indeed. We produced three movies, experimenting with a couple of different personas. In the first film, I play a young, nervous and rather posh sixth-former applying for bar work during college holidays, at a gentlemans' club. During the job interview the manager explains the club's slightly unusual disciplinary procedures, and after her initial outrage Pandora is tempted back to inquire more closely about what this would involve. The manager decides to deal with her uncertainty by giving her a hands-on demonstration.

We decided that the club was called the "Hot Bottom Club", and before shooting began I spotted the cheesy retro Betty Boop figurine standing coyly on the edge of the bar. The obvious conclusion was to turn her around to face the wall, displaying her lacy french knickers and rounded cheeks to the whole room. I'm afraid to admit that I followed her example soon afterwards.

The second and third films were an encounter with Peter's creation "Mr Stern", who runs a service providing discipline to deserving young ladies. For this I was playing a rather different character: an arrogant bully who throws her weight around both in her job and at home, enjoying controlling and humiliating those within her domain. None of this makes her particularly happy but she's unsure how to stop, and when she sees the advertisement for Mr Stern's services she wonders if this might not be what she needs to clear her conscience and give her the motivation to stop being a bitch. A soul-searching, confessional interview is followed by a severe paddling and caning, until she knows what it's like to feel helpless and vulnerable.

The CP was of very high quality - I was particularly impressed by Mr Stern's skill with a cane. However, I found my own character almost impossible to get my head around. Not only is the whole "bully" persona completely against my personality, but the fact that she had guilt and wanted to confess seemed to contradict it. And during the CP itself, I was struggling with my reactions. It's a spanking movie, so reaction is the order of the day - lots of wriggles, kicks, yelps, plaintive squeals. At the same time, the "edge" of the scene was that it was completely consensual - that the character needed the punishment, wanted it. Several times during the scene Mr Stern asked if I thought he should continue, and I had to say "yes". Integrating that with giving enough emotion to my responses to be sexy, with a plausible "arrogant but wanting to change" personality, was quite a challenge. I'll be very interested to see the results when they're released.

So Pandora is, apparently, quite a chameleon. And according to the English Spankers themselves, she's also "beautiful, intelligent and badly in need of a damn good spanking into the bargain. What more could we ask for?"

High praise indeed! Thanks a lot, gentlemen: it was a pleasure. I'll definitely be back.